I Thought I Believed in Love But NOT Anymore!!

This past week has led me to believe that I will never find the right woman for me so I have come to grips and terms that I will live out the rest of my existence in solitude from women not knowing what it will feel like to make love to a woman again, kiss a woman's lips ever so seductively and softly, rub and fondle and caress her firm supple breasts and squeeze her ass with the palm of my hand!

All this time during the last 8-9 months I've given my love, heart and soul to this women who in turn wanted me to be someone that I am not in her eyes & also who apparently didn't believe in our relationship since she has broken up with me not once but twice now so I am done, finished, and to make matters worse I even wanted to marry this woman later on this year!

I put so much into her but...all of the sudden I just...don't believe in love at this moment. I'm sure it's because I'm still pissed off under the surface because my heart and head knows I deserve one hell of a woman and maybe this could be a fear of being abandoned yet again since my ex-wife abandoned me when she asked for a divorce because we eventually grew apart after 15 years and marrying so young?

But I'm just really upset at all the lies being when I thought we were getting back on track right after Thanksgiving.

Finding this out now in this kind of way is the quickest way for me to end my feelings for her?

I didn't think I'd be able to but maybe since my heart is cold.!

I'm just still kind of bitter & upset she put me in this position of doubting LOVE now!

I guess it truly is better to have loved than lost than to have loved at all

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Comment by absolutaries on January 17, 2012 at 9:52pm

LMAO @ Cousin Ed!

Comment by Michigan's Finest on January 15, 2012 at 12:24am

Yes Cousin Ed this one is straight and to the point with no chaser after it thanks bro and already have done so!

Comment by Cousin Ed on January 13, 2012 at 7:58am

Man hold your head up and try to put it behind you. Many times in life things happen for a reason. Man she just made room for you to meet the one that is really for you. Now you know I can keep going, I have many more of these cliches. But I think Cher said it best:

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SPOTTED: Nas OUT & ABOUT In West Hollywood

Nasty Nas is in L.A. wrapping up his upcoming Life Is Good album (dropping 7/17).  And he was spotted out and about in West Hollywood yesterday with Capricorn Clark--Bad Boy's Marketing Exec.  We're not sure what's going on there--but we're sure they'll maintain they're friends and/or just working together.  Pics inside...

After grabbing lunch in his bright green Adidas track suit and Jordans, Nas hit the streets of West Hollywood to likely head to the studio:

It's been a big week for the sexy Mr. Jones as he dropped his brand new "Daughters" video featuring his own little girl Destiny.  And he just revealed that he will be unveiling his brand new website and upcoming tour dates tomorrow.

About the meaning of his new album's Life Is Good title, Nas told Complex magazine this month it's all about getting to a point where you master your own life, and not letting thieves and money bring you down:

I never liked dealing with money. It comes between real shit. Friendship, loyalty, and love is the real shit. Money is the other shit. I have one way of dealing with money, and then you have educated people, who know how to deal with money, and we have conflicts there. It’s like in the movie Wall Street, my man Gekko says, “Pay attention. Money’s a jealous bitch. Either you’re going to pay attention to her, or she’ll find someone else that will.” And mine has definitely found other people who appreciate her more. [Laughs.] I’ve neglected her and abused her. I let a person take her from me—and I don’t mean my ex-wife, I mean some bad business from, like, six years ago that’s affecting me now. And I take responsibility for it, because it’s my problem. But I still see that as something I have to fix, because if you don’t fix money, it’ll fix your ass.

Check out more highlights and pics from his new Complex spread HERE in case you missed it.

Pics via WENN

HOTTIE ALERT: Vanessa Simmons ROCKS A Slinky CATSUIT For Sexy Photoshoot

Vanessa Simmons recently kept it extra sexy for a photoshoot with Robert Ector.  See the pics inside and find out what she said about her new lingerie line.

Designer Vanessa Simmons posed for Taylor-Ector Studios photographer Robert Ector in Los Angeles, CA, for The Dark Room, recently where she dished on her new lingerie line she recently launched called "ROSE By Vanessa Jean." 

 

 

When asked what inspired her to launch the new line, Angela Simmons' big sister Vanessa said, "I wanted to provide women with a fashion forward brand that understands the need of every woman to feel comfort with trendsetting style and glamour."

Loves these pics 'Nessa!

 

Photos via Robert Ector

Beyonce Nabs A Lead Voice In Animated Film "Epic", Blue Ivy Nabs Kelly & Michelle As Babysitters

Beyonce's summer of getting back to business just got more hectic.  She's just been named as one of the lead voices for the upcoming animated film, Epic.  Deets inside, plus the fashion run down on all of her and her dancers' REVEL concert looks, and Blue Ivy's famous new babysitters...

She's already got Clint Eastwood's A Star Is Born leading role in her back pocket, now, Mrs. Knowles Carter has been named as one of the voices for the animated flick Epic.  The 3D CG movie is from the makers of the big budget films Ice Age & Rio.

Beyonce will voice the character Queen Tara, and plenty of other celebs are rounding out the cast: Colin Farrell as Ronin, The Hunger Games‘ Josh Hutcherson as Nod, Amanda Seyfried as Mary Katherine, Johnny Knoxville as Mandrake, Aziz Ansari as Mub, rapper Pitbull as Bufo, Jason Sudeikis as Bomba, and Steven Tyler as Nim Galuu.

According to Deadline:

The film is described as a battle deep in the forest between the forces of good and evil. When a teenaged girl finds herself magically transported into this secret universe, she must band together with a rag-tag team of fun and whimsical characters to save that world, which in turn saves the real world.

Epic will be released May 24, 2013.

And if you were wondering who was looking after almost 5-month-old Baby B.I.C. up in Revel's Penthouse while Mama Bey was downstairs shutting down the stage--it was her Destiny's Child besties Kelly Rowland & Michelle Williams.

TMZ caught up with Michelle last night and they report:

Last night in NYC, Michelle revealed Kelly Rowland also pulled a shift watching B.I. in Beyonce's hotel suite ... during B's concert in Atlantic City last weekend.

In the middle of the show, Beyonce thanked Michelle for babysitting -- but Michelle 'fessed up to us she had some help ... and even got to go downstairs to see some of the show.

Cute!

Beyonce also posted the whole fashion run down for herself and everyone else from the 4 nights of Memorial Day performances.  Check it below (l-r):

Ralph and Russo, The Blondes, David Koma, Tina Knowles for House of Deréon Couture, (again) Tina Knowles for House of Deréon Couture and (again) Ralph and Russo.  She rocked Stuart Weitzman shoes with each look.

Her dancers rocked Dolce and Gabbana & David Koma, while her all-female band wore Alexander Vauthier.  And her trio of backup singers, The Mamas, wore Pin Up Girls Clothing.  Fab!

 

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